Seriously hurt 我连呼吸都痛!
I’m back from my 3d2n chalet. I would like to say sorry to everyone as I guess I have causes some inconvenience there. Initially I have decided not to go for the chalet but I want to get an answer in the chalet itself as well as promising i will turn up. I thought chalet could bring us closer due to our problem of time but i'm wrong! It's just an excuse! Moreover, mum being very nice allowing me to go for the chalet for all days as she wants me to have fun since school is over. I guess she did miss me a lot!
Back to my single life now, the first time in my whole life which a guy can make mi falls for him so much. Nevertheless, reading through all the sms, msn, recalling all the dates and things you have said before just makes me feel so hurt. I can see that you are doing things now to make me hate you! I want to remove away the phrase call ‘you think too much’ from my own dictionary. Till now then I realize all along I’m not thinking too much and this is the phrase that makes me reflect is it that I’m thinking too much.
I felt so silly for trusting and believing you so much. Why is it that at the earlier stage when problem start to happen I have never ever thought of the reason for breaking you gave me? I can’t stop myself from thinking back of the times when the both of us love each other so much. What can I do apart from crying? I really hate myself for being like that. I think mum hurts too when she see me crying so badly. After all, I have told her everything.
Why is it that you make me falls so deeply in love with you when you no longer love me already? Is this called revenge? I think it’s a lesson for me and an experience. People you won’t believe all this things until one fine day you really experience on it. Why is it I love you to the extent till I can change myself for the sake of you?
As for now, I can do nothing and time is the best medicine for me. Crying was what I can do. I’m really very tire but I just couldn’t get to sleep. Before chalet that night I didn’t manage to sleep enough as I was thinking what am I suppose to do in the chalet about us and e 3d2n chalet I didn’t sleep at all. I’m back now but still couldn’t sleep. Nobody was at home.
Crying doesn’t heal me but drinking and smoking does. Thanks!
Special thanks and sorry to this people: Peiyu, Yan Lin, Michelle and Hui Xian. They are the one that are by my side and things they said makes me reflect and I think what they said is absolutely true!
Somehow regret myself from ignoring and not believing what win has said. Anyway, thanks to him and Damien too.
Lastly, I’m sorry for not listening to the advice you people gave me.
